I'm Finished...

"I gotta make a confession" -Beyonce

Right about now I hate my friends... I love them, just can't stand them. They just reminded me of something I've been trying to ignore all week. My Senior(s) are leaving. For good! That does include him... damn. I've never felt this way before... I don't know what to do. What to say. How to react. Right now, at this very moment, I'm blasting Beyonce trying to drown out these  thoughts.

Of course this was gonna have to come to an end. Whatever the hell this is... But I'm just not ready.  I just need like one more week. Damn, im over here about to cry and shit (I dont cry y'all). Like it's not even about him leving because, well people leave, but I feel some type of way about him. Even if I put up some type of front... He knows how I feel. And it's coming to an end before we even get to really begin.

The worst part though is that he's gonna forget me. Im gonna be sitting at home wondering what he's doing & he's not even gonna remember my damn name once he walks out of the building for the last time. I'm through! Im done with anything that even comes close to this... If this is what the L word feels like then I never want it to happen again...

But enough of my emotional self... Beyonce just won my fandom with Rocket

"Damn... I can't help but love the way we... ;)" -Beyonce

Mute Friends & Temporary 'BoyFRIENDS'

Long bus rides. Temporary "boyfriends". Competitions. Mute "Friends".

    I can honestly say that this past week has been one huge emotional roller coaster for me. Not only did I spend five days attending a Robotics competition but I also had my heart ripped out of my heart, not once, but three times in that short amount of time. In order for you to actually understand exactly how terrible I have felt, you;d have to walk in my shoes. But seeing as I have a big foot, I'll just tell you what you missed.

     Smokey Mountain Regional was amazing. It was totally fun and, as always, a great experience.The things that occurred throughout it however, weren't so entertaining. Quite the opposite actually. Have you ever had a friend who tells you everything, and not to hurt you, but to inform you, to keep you posted on who's actually your friend, and who' s just there. Well I'd like to think that I have at least one of those. I once thought that all of my friends were rel and spoke their minds but I guess not (no hard feelings now). Apparently a few, meaning two, of my friends have a problem with someone who had grown close to me in a short amount of time. My new best friend. They have a problem with not only her, but also the fact that we're "so close" but they have yet to tell me. They haven't spoken to me about how they felt about the situation. I don't know how to feel about it anymore, but when I first found out I was heartbroken because I really trusted them... Should I still?

   As far as my temp bf goes... well lets just say we're dangerous together so I preferred our temporary relationship just as much as he did. We can easily rip off one anothers head but when we really try we are such a perfect couple. I'm not going to lie like I don't like him but I don't have time for his foolishness and the thots that he attract. When the trip ended on Sunday so did our temporary relationship and I was somewhat okay with that. At the same time, I just wanted to run into his arms and savour the moments we had left. If I could redo this past five days with him I most definitely would.

   Oh and lastly, We dropped a whole 10 places in the competition because someone (cough cough *points fingers*) placed the robot backwards on the field. That really broke my heart. Thank you so much for that! But over all I had a great time, made new friends, great looking guys, and took a crap load of unnecessary selfies. 

Comment your opinions, criticism, or whatever else!

-KeBei